You know, I’m not very confident when it comes to explaining the things of God.
How can I capture the message of the Bible and explain it to others?
I know it in my heart, but when I try to share the good news about what God has done for us- I seem to fail with my words.
But my life testimony cannot ever fail!!! My words may seem silly and clumsy at times, but my heart is on fire and full of Praise for what God has done in my life.
My life story will be that God is real. No matter what we go through: God will never leave us or forsake us.
He saved me from living a life of despair and emptiness. That may sound dramatic or offensive, but I feel it in my spirit.
Firstly, God gave me the gift of an exceptionally incredible husband: William Knott.
The gift of his love was one of the ways God changed my future. Because my highest dreams as a 12 year old girl was to have a baby. I never dreamt a man could ever love me: so I assumed I would have to be a single mum.
My biggest dream was to be a single mum, because I believed my child would love me. Do you see the potential for problems here??😂
Children rarely demonstrate the kind of love a mother needs. Children do love their parents, but if that’s the only source of your love…at some point you will feel completely unloved.
I know that my life had so many opportunities to be a train wreck. The level of my brokenness without God is something I know very well. My self esteem has been minimal since I can remember.
I also come from a background of people who turned to alcohol for comfort. I know that as a single mum, with all of my brokenness and self-esteem issues, I could have easily turned to alcohol for comfort on a daily basis.
But God knew. He knew my weaknesses and brokenness, and gave me a husband that encourages me. God gave me a husband who would hold my hand and lead me back to Jesus, when I was a young girl.
I am still broken in many ways, but God is slowly mending me. Putting back together the pieces of my heart that were fractrured. I still need comfort, but not from a bottle. God invites me to turn to Him for comfort.❤❤❤
I know that I am incredibly blessed to be married to Will. I don’t deserve a good husband or a happy marriage, but I’m so grateful for it. The gift of a Christian husband has anchored me and saved me from my own broken dreams.
God has given me a hope and a joy that cannot be stolen from me. Especially the promise of salvation and forgiveness from my sins. The guilt and shame I’ve experienced in my life would have threatened to crush me without Jesus! I acknowledge that I’m a hopeless sinner without God.
You may not see it from a distance, but I know my own heart. I know my mistakes and sin. My choices that were selfish or caused harm to others. I know my history….But none of that matters in the face of Jesus! That is why I thank Him!
God has changed my life and my future! Any version of God’s plan for my life is better than my version of the plan!
When my explanations fail or my theology is unpolished: my life will have to be a act of Praise to my heavenly Father.
But I need more.
Even after everything I’ve said above: I need more of God in my life. At any moment, my sinful nature could rise up: and it often does.
Then I come back to God and admit that I’m sorry. I need God’s help to change me. I need to ask for forgiveness. The forgiveness that Jesus gave to the world.
That’s the cry of my heart this morning: “Please Holy Spirit, give me more of you!” “Please produce a spiritual life in me that is only created by You. Help me to put You first. Help me to want to spend time with You. Change me”.
John 3:5 (New living Translation) Jesus replied: “I assure you, no one can enter the Kingdom of God without being born of water and the Spirit. Humans can only reproduce human life, but the Holy Spirit gives birth to spiritual life”.
John 3:34 (NLT)
For he (Jesus) is sent by God. He speaks God’s words, for God gives him the Spirit without limit. The Father (God) loves his Son (Jesus) and has put everything into his hands. And anyone who believes in God’s Son has eternal life”.
“Lord, please take my life and create something new. Holy Spirit please give me a life full of you! You gave Jesus your Spirit, without limit. And I want to be more like Jesus: full of the Holy Spirit!! Please make me a woman of relentless faith. Joyful faith. Contagious faith.”
It’s not too late for anyone.
Maybe today you could tell God that you need Him in your life, just like me.
Ask God to take away your guilt and your shame. Forgive you from your sins.
Ask God to come into your heart. Change you. Ask God to wash you clean. Make you new.
Jesus died on the cross to take away our sins. But the story didn’t end there….
Jesus rose from the grave and came alive again. His gift of forgiveness is a never ending story of love and hope.
Who knows how much joy you could experience, through Jesus?
Not only joy in this life, but the joy that comes from a future in Heaven. Where God will take away all of the pain we experience on Earth. He promises that He will wipe away every year from our eyes. There will be no more sorrow.
God is the God of impossible things, being made possible through Him.
Love always Kelly xx